Life Catch Up

I haven't blogged in a long time!!! And wow, a lot has happened!!!

The adventure that Life has me on at the moment is pretty confusing. There are far to many high and lows for someone like me who hates feeling emotional and out of control. But I've had a lot of growth to show for all the hard times. And I can honestly say I have experienced that when I get pushed to my limit-- I don't break, it takes a couple of deep breaths on my part then I work on getting my life back together... but I'm stronger for it. And spiritually, emotionally, and whatever else (physically?, personally?) I'm a different person. And the following events are all contributors to the new me :)

• I got my passage in March. That whole experience and blessing was a series of emptying everything out of me then filling me overflowing with encouragement and nuggets of wisdom that I am still processing. I think it will be there for me to pull from for the rest of my life. And now I have a relationships with the other ladies that for most of my life I've held at a level where it was a kind a barrier between me and them. Also I have to get use to how I am now not allowed to call some of them "Mrs. Fill in the Blank", which is like experiencing life reform in itself. I've called them 'Mrs. Fill in the Blank' for as long as they've been apart of my life. Anyway my passage was one of the events that changed my life.

• I went to Mexico for 3 weeks not even a week after my passage. That trip was hard... a lot of things in my life including emotional boundaries in myself were challenged and changed. Which writing it like that sounds like giving in, but was another one of those moments I was pushed to my breaking point but I'm still alive to learn from it.

• When I went to Mexico I had to bring a couple of Midwifery Lessons with me which I wasn't humanly capable to finish all of them. So I came home swamped with lessons, my friend was getting married, my immune system held out the whole time while in Mexico but when I got home it kinda gave up -pleurisy in your lungs isn't in any of my definitions of fun let me tell you-, and I was an emotional mess... So with all those contributing factors I failed my Second Module and I have to take it again.

All of those reading this who are counting on me becoming a midwife in a couple of years, don't worry this retake has only bumped my NARM exam date about 6-8 months, I think...

I got to talk on the phone with my Module Instructor, which really helped. She's Awesome, she helped me understand I wasn't a failure even though I felt like one. People are counting on me to become a midwife, supporting me etc and I felt like a failure because, at the time, Life took me out. And I was afraid I came to a point where the only option was to wimp out, and I looked at the long run of schooling and asked myself if I was going to let myself fail again. So that experience I've learned from.

• Now more currently, I live at Dean and David P. house. That's an adventure of life :)

• And my parents and my only annoying, lovable, little brother are planning on moving to Millington. I'm not freaking out (which is Rule #1 if anyone remembers), I'm still trying to figure out what I feel and think about that whole deal. I'm not moving with them at the moment but I am planning on re-evaluating that decision within the next 3 months or so.
  

So this is a public version of 'Life Catch Up' from the new Me :)

I passed the test.

Well I passed the test at the end of the workshops with a 92.86%. Not as well as I could have done but it is still a very good grade.

San Antonio here I come!!!

Tonight at 7pm my mom, Mrs Shalom, and I are leaving to San Antonio in our amazing Prius. We are going to drive for a while tonight then get a hotel room and take off again tomorrow morning. It takes about 13 hours for us to get there and I need to be at class no later than 8:30 am on Thursday. And I've discovered I am too much of a procrastinator and for the past few days I have been trying desperately to get some big assignments wrapped up. I still have to write a Research Paper on the History of Midwifery.....
Anyway I'm nearly on the first of many trips to Texas! My eyes are glazed at all that I've yet to accomplish and have accomplished in this day alone.

Take Luck

First of MANY trips to Texas

In about 2 1/2 weeks I will be going to San Antonio, Texas to take my first test on Module 1: Introduction to Midwifery. I have 5 other fellow students that I will get to meet. Basically I will be in a classroom like setting from 8am-5pm with an hour lunch break Thursday, January 6th and Friday, January 7th. This test won't be very hard but unfortunately I still have a couple of assignments that I need to complete to turn in the night of January 5th. So I will be cramming those in with my current A&P lessons. Now the A&P test/workshop/class thing will be considerably harder when I have to go again to San Antonio in May. Because Anatomy and Physiology hands down is just harder than learning the rules and regulations for being a midwife in Texas or learning the history of Midwifery. So another little update about my up-incoming first of MANY trips to Texas.
I also got invited to Becky's birth which will be in January sometime. She's due the end of January but everyone knows she'll go before her due date :). I am so tickled that she invited me not to help but to be there, I was happy and giddy all day long (no joke). Another thing is she has a Memphis midwife attending her birth so I will get to meet her and her assistant. And just all the opportunities that offers are amazing! I really can't wait!!!!

Started Module II today!!

Started the Anatomy and Physiology Module today. It will take me 24 weeks to complete, in other words 1 semester. It is online and it takes a lot of diligence to stay on top of all the lessons etc. But it is just one more category that I have to finish to be one step closer to becoming a midwife.

Module II

I'm about to start my 2nd subject/installment of my Midwifery education on November 29th. This "module" is dedicated to Anatomy and Physiology, and is on online class. Hence why I'm not able to go this year's Mexico trips, I can't be without internet for more than a day or two at a time. It's sad that I can't go and serve over there because I can't go without internet. But becoming a midwife in the long run is better than missing a mission trip or two...

I've been doing a lot of research online on Midwifery Colleges, nearby midwives, and birth centers. I am wanting to find the best places to apprentice or get some extra learning. Believe it or not there is still about 12 states that practicing midwifery is still illegal. And 10 that are still undecided. Why I've been trying to find nearby midwives is to know who I can find to one day in the near future to be my preceptor.

I'm also going to San Antonio, Texas for a workshop/test/class for the first module on January 4th to 8th or 9th. This trip should be a lot of fun! It is the first of many and I'll get to meet all of my fellow students. I'm not positive but I think I'll probably be the youngest. I sort of experience that at a MANA conference in Nashville a little bit ago. Everyone that I talked to were impressed at my concrete vision for my life before I even left high school. Most of the midwives are older than 30. Not all but a large percentage.

So this is where I'm at with my Midwifery schooling...

Midwifery Course!

Old news but I sent in my application for my Midwifery Course on August 9th, I think. But I received my orientation email on the 25th. Just to sum everything up..... I picked to start my course at a real crunch time. Meaning I pretty much have to do the first two modules at the same time. Which supposedly it is do-able. So with feeling the pressure from that thought and what it will cost as in study time. My course coordinator had attachments at the bottom of the email. Pretty much the Student's Handbook, ways to Efficiently Study, and the pre-module 1. Plus I had to do a bunch of surveys from different college websites to figure out which way I will learn the best. Which to one of them (there are three) I am a tactile/kinesthetic learner. Another I am a good balance of Active and Reflective, and Sequential and Global (with tendencies to be more Global), and have a moderate preference to be more Sensing rather than Intuitive, and Visual to Verbal. I have one more to take which is the one I will take more seriously but I have to pay a fee to receive my official answer, to this one there are 214 questions.
Another thing is I have to get books to study and the instructors especially stress that you have the latest edition. I had a couple of the books that previously studying people had, but I discovered since I am the only midwife of my generation here in the village, every book is like the 2nd edition when I need the 3rd etc. So now I am having to buy pretty much all new books, and books are expensive.Particularly books with a lot of information in them. So the next aspiring midwives might be able to use my editions of books before they update everything.
And on top of all that I have to have the first module done before the end of December because I have to go to San Antonio, Texas for my first workshop/test. Which shouldn't be to hard I think, if I don't have a social life anymore. But I think I can do this. For some really good reason God really wants me to become a midwife, He has been letting everything fall into place thus far. Not to mention I really want to become a midwife.
This is an update of my current adventure of life is.